It’s really amazing that you feel so strongly about your interest in Judaism that you’re already concerned about losing it. I understand that this is not because you are unsure about how you feel about Judaism, but rather because you value so much what you’ve found that you want to make sure you don’t lose it.
One way of making sure you can maintain, preserve and even increase your relationship with Judaism is to treat it in a similar way to cultivating and maintaining a relationship with a person. Just as when you meet someone new, whom you really appreciate and value, you think of things to say and do in order to let that person know how you feel so as not to lose that valued friendship, so too with Judaism you must think of ways to keep the flame burning.
In order to maintain a friendship, you have to put aside time from your busy schedule to spend quality time with the person you care for. Similarly, it is very important that you make time in your routine to continue pursuing your interest in Judaism by reading books or hearing lectures. Nowadays this is easier than ever. Jewish bookstores are full of quality, authentic material on any aspect of Judaism that interests you. Alternatively, if you don’t have access to a good Jewish bookstore, almost any book can be ordered on-line; and there is a wealth of material on the many Orthodox websites as well. Similarly, there are a tremendous number of free Torah lectures for listening on-line and for download that you can take with you anywhere.
In order to maintain a friendship, it is also necessary to periodically step back from the nitty-gritty details and dynamics of the relationship to regain perspective and remind yourself of why you so value your connection with that person. So too here, it is necessary from time to time to contemplate and recall what you so value in Judaism. This is particularly true when there are other less significant but more immediate interests or distractions that are vying for your attention. Of course, the path of least resistance and immediate gratification is luring, but one should surely not let a good and close friend go in favor of fleeting, and ultimately disappointing, acquaintances.
In order to maintain a friendship, it’s also important to express your feelings and commitment in tangible, practical ways. This can include proactively doing things to contribute to the friendship, and also forgoing opportunities or making sacrifices in favor of the friendship. In order to maintain your relationship with Judaism, you should also contribute tangibly to the relationship by actively expressing your feelings and commitment by observing the practices of Judaism (mitzvot).
Therefore, my best advice to you is to continue learning at a pace comfortable to you and continue growing in observance of fulfilling the traditional do’s and don’ts of Judaism – and keep in mind that “the ways of our Torah are pleasant and all its paths are peaceful”.
